Have you ever stopped and thought about time. How fast it goes by, the different ages in time and centuries. Time heals everything.
My baby and first born turned 10 years old on the 18th of January, I know everybody says "it seems like yesterday" but it really, really does. I still remember his birth vividly and that first moment that changed my life. I had waited for Joshua for a very long time and was so ready when he finally came, although it was hard being a new mum with a first child, it was all about him now, the sleeping in and the long showers had gone forever, I was lucky if I had a shower and the sleep deprevation was the worst but even through all this it was pure joy. The terrible two's was the worst and Joshua was a terrible two year old, I don't really know how I had another one so close to him.
In saying this through all this joy I'm talking about, there were some really, really hard times too and when I eventually was on my own with a two year old and a new born baby (now that was really hard!) I never really wished time away as I really loved the baby stage, prams, baby bags, difficult breast feeding and sterilizing bottles and all those wonderful toys I could buy them!
Time has really healed as ten years later here I am with two beautiful healthy boys, but if I could have one wish, just one, I would just love to track back to that baby time. It was really beautiful.
Happy Birthday Joshua, you will always be my beautiful boy.
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